Fuck My Life

Should I pretend, sound like I care? Don't give me your sinister stare The universe seems not to care for me Failure is my closest friend Can't wait to see this bullshit end Will I ever find a place to be in? My focus is all gone My mistakes can't be undone Is there a reason to keep going on? Why even bother Fighting for so long? Thought it'd be over When I ran as far as I could go Can't let my past take over Even though I'm craving closure I fight myself all over Time after time F*ck my life Mistakes I made in fear of loss Have led me to collision course I finally got to see what I've become My actions weren't clear to me I ran away in shame and fear It's time to face the consequences now We've been friends for so long But you can't trust me anymore There is no single way it won't go wrong All fault is on my side Seems I truly lost my mind It took me years to see I was so blind Why even bother (F*ck my life) Fighting for so long? Thought it'd be over (F*ck my life) When I ran as far as I could go Can't let my past take over Even though I'm craving closure I fight myself all over Time after time F*ck my life Stop giving me a chance Can't you see I am no friend? I hurt all those I love, it has to end Why should you forgive? It seems I failed you on repeat It's so much easier to accept defeat So why even bother Fighting for what we had? I know it's over It's too late to bring it back I can't promise you It will all get better soon I fight myself still too But am I still here? Am I alive? F*ck my life