Own Worst Enemy

Most days I'm alright But what about the nights I spent fighting for my life I know I'm not the only one I hope I'm not the only one Searching for a remedy But disaster is the recipe Getting caught up in the chemistry Makes sense I'm my own worst enemy I'm my I'm my own worst enemy Searching for a better me But disfunction is the recipe Getting hung up on the history Makes sense I'm my own worst enemy I'm my I'm my own worst enemy I thought if nothing else that God could help But i just found myself Second guessing every step Did I get lost in misdirection I must of missed the message Time is precious Can't be wasting that Mistakes I made Can't take'em back Can't erase the past So I put that bottle back in the cabinet And save my family from the tragedy of selfish actions I don't think they'd understand it See I still got a few rough edges That are still in need of being sanded I turn these beats on And take a load off Ima hold on won't walk away Keep rolling with punches I wish they knew the strength it takes Just to make it through the day to day I keep on fighting for my babies sake Most days I'm alright But what about the nights I spent fighting for my life I know I'm not the only one I hope I'm not the only one Searching for a remedy But disaster is the recipe Getting caught up in the chemistry Makes sense I'm my own worst enemy I'm my I'm my own worst enemy Searching for a better me But disfunction is the recipe Getting hung up on the history Makes sense I'm my own worst enemy I'm my I'm my own worst enemy I ain't chasing profit I'm just talking Getting all this off my chest This music is my therapy This mic it knows me best I've been putting forth the effort and time to find the cause and effect But still getting lost in the wreckage I Been doing my best with cards that I was dealt But my pride and ego got me stuck and collecting dust on a shelf To afraid to ask for help So I suffer in silence behind all these wall That I put up by myself Feels like I'm out here on my own I swear I'm trying not to let my past set the tone But I just keep repeating all the shit that I've been shown Even though all these reruns are my least favorite episodes Most days I'm alright But what about the nights I spent fighting for my life I know I'm not the only one I hope I'm not the only one Searching for a remedy But disaster is the recipe Getting caught up in the chemistry Makes sense I'm my own worst enemy I'm my I'm my own worst enemy Searching for a better me But disfunction is the recipe Getting hung up on the history Makes sense I'm my own worst enemy I'm my I'm my own worst enemy