In My Head

I been going through so much that I feel like I failed Nobody else would understand it’s like I’m going through hell I tried to keep my head up but I just couldn’t prevail It’s like I took all my dreams and I just put them on sale I try to cherish the good because the devil always working You wouldn’t even understand what’s on the other side of the curtain I got so many goals and I’m just tryna chase em all It’s like I think I’m doing good and then I get a wake up call (Damn) It’s like I got all of these friends but don’t no one support me Feel like I’m all alone and I just gotta keep on going It’s more to the story damn but I don’t even show it I just swept it under the rug and then I kept on growing Ever since I started rapping don’t nobody take me serious I wonder do they take me as a joke I’m just curious I gotta prove em wrong and that’s just point blank period Ain’t talking City Girls I gotta tighten up and steer it then A lot of people talking like they really got my back But honestly I’m all alone cause all of it be really cap I’m just thinking to myself why do I sit back and still rap Because nobody really listen honestly it’s really sad I don’t got no team behind me this come straight from the muscle So if you think that I’m complaining honestly I just struggle I’ma rapper so I'm venting and I put it on a song Cause when it’s all said done honestly I'm alone I be going through so much that I feel like I failed Nobody else would understand it’s like I’m going through hell I tried to keep my head up but I just couldn’t prevail It’s like I took all my dreams and I just put them on sale So I gotta charge it to the game and get out of my bag I just wanna be successful so I gotta act bad And nobody really understands they seeing what I show em My emotions in these bars yeah I felt em when I wrote em I’m just aiming for the top so I’m ready for the obstacles Going super hard and I just can’t believe it’s possible Thinking bout where I had started now I feel unstoppable I gotta keep working till I’m chilling where it’s tropical The things that I be thinking they be clouding my judgement Stuff be going real good and honestly I can’t trust it Because I’m used to disappointment that’s why I’m so reluctant So I be missing out on things that I didn’t see coming I gotta keep on going hard, I did so many things so far I done changed so many things that I did not see in the start I gotta shine bright like a star I’m feeling vengeful just like scar If you gotta goal then you better start don’t go soft you gotta hard uh I be in my head so much that I’m missing what’s in front of me I be going so hard and nobody say that they proud of me I’m my own motivation I don’t really need the fake love (Yeah I don’t really need ya fake love) I be going through so much that I feel like I failed Nobody else would understand it’s like I’m going through hell I tried to keep my head up but I just couldn’t prevail It’s like I took all my dreams and I just put them on sale