what about me?

She did not grow up The way that I grew up Had a different past People came and left Good things didn't last Grew up white and black White and black Good and bad Nothing in between Only got extremes That played out with me She was really nice She was really Mean Spent some time with her And watched how she grew up I hope I helped her grow I hope I brought her up I know she did for me I hope that she can see that When I gave up some light To see her shine That I would never take it back I hope she's out there winning But lately, I been thinking that It should be more about me I live in my head and my body so Why do I spend all my Time making it about her Forgot what I wanted Pushed back emotions It kept me from growing up And that's not good enough For her, for me For what we wanted to be All of this time I spent caring for her I think I forgot about me So what about me What about me I think I forgot about Me I think I forgot about me She said you keep People distant from habit You do it for safety But you can not have it Forever It's better to let yourself fall She deserves my best And I know I deserve the Same from her I've just been all Stressed and lost and trapped Just tryna make it work And I don't know how she Found out why I do what I do Before I knew it myself I think she knows me well I hope she's out there winning But lately, I been thinking that It should be more about me I live in my head and my body so Why do I spend all my Time making it about her Forgot what I wanted Pushed back emotions It kept me from growing up And that's not good enough For her, for me For what we wanted to be All of this time I spent caring for her I think I forgot about me So what about me What about me I think I forgot about Me I think I forgot about me