Dead Roses

Yeah It's an ocean full of pain that I'm drowning in Comin' from the dream that I be chasin' daily, losing sleep While people on the shore got time to be Clownin' me, Judgin' me, Telling me, I ain't got whatever it takes to reach the peak Paint me how you want, I'm still a human with skin that bleeds Never had no life jacket for safety when I'm swimmin' deep Always to fall on my instincts, Runs through my ancestry And I call that sh" survival mode It happens every time I'm low But I'm convinced nowadays I be lost when I can't fight my thoughts Put my life at stake hope to make it through and beat the odds Hope my palms don't get tired up the air just to be seen by god Feels like blessings reach me, It be paranormal vibes And the one above feels like you keep gettin' farther in the clouds I don't think I lost faith, I'm the one you forgot about I got energies and enemies that don't even feel my vibe Fightin' demons more than tipsy, I can barely feel alive Can't even compete with myself when I can't pass the pass Feels like the lights are never on I'm on the other side Hope this don't last long enough and take away my life Lately, I feel like dead roses each petal keep falling off Heart says give it time (Tell me) Mind says you lost now (Tell me) I don't know what they want (Woah) I'm feelin' out of balance (Nah) No chance for a second turn (Woah) I'm reachin' I can't find Sometimes I think they're right I took my chances prove none To prove none I'm a dead rose in the sky Took my chance I ain't feel right Going insane, am I living lies? Got my hands up, God Got my hands up, God Got my hands up, God Got my hands up, God Show me the best sight Exposed to what you call life Put my soul upon a mission Found myself in a distance Still feel no difference Wish life had a second part cause everything feels unfinished Stuck in the matrix Been hackin' the system now I'm losin' all my patience For all that's left everything is wasted Even the start feels rough around the edge can't trace where I'm ending I fall less than my eye rest I give all still they give me props for my losses I found myself in the dark, and my smile was the cost and my blood wears cold cause I'm heartless So roll up another one keep it raw with me Put my feelings on paper you can't crap with me Mind full of riots but fu" it imma stand with it Time goin pass things will quiet down, This is my chapter I'll write it now This is my chapter I'll right it now