Afraid

How did we get here? Are you trapped inside your ways? What's your biggest fear? Tell me why you're so afraid Are you keeping any secrets when you're lying in the grave? Can you take down all your walls and honestly feel safe? I don't know Oh God have mercy Hold me close I don't feel safe I feel alone I'm not so sturdy Demons coming back to say Boy, what's wrong with you? Life will flash so fast before you die Don't go wasting everyday Without passion in your eyes They tell me I should lighten up Spread some hope along the way Then I'll attract what I've become When that's clearly not the case Disconnected from the world Got no gratitude to waste Restless, discontent and irritated 'Til I get a taste What's your biggest fear? Tell me why you're so afraid Are you keeping any secrets when you're lying in the grave? Do you think about your past, all the choices that you made? Can you make up for what you did? Anything you'd want to change? I couldn't go back if I wished it To me, top three on my wishlist Make my family proud, earn their trust and never let them witness Me sitting on the edge with my misery, hopeless And if I don't get out my head, could be a slippery slope Unless I speak to all my friends, see they help me with coping No I won't relapse instead, I'll keep my energy open Know this potent wants me dead It's been awaiting weak moments So keep your drink, your coke and meds I got my tools I'm not broken Are you keeping any secrets when you're lying in the grave? Do you think about your past, all the choices that you made? Can you make up for what you did? Anything you'd want to change? If you take back all your struggles Do you think you'd be the same?