afterthought

Oh yeah the monsters won't go And yeah my windows won't close Everything's rushing to my head and it wont go And I'm walking on a tight rope While the devils waiting down below And he screams out only 50 years to go Stumbling again Lost in the pills I've been Crumbling again Blown in the wind Learning to mend Breaking to bend I've been Wrestling with friends Broken again Can't make my own decisions I don't know my own intentions Look at the picture I miss him Wish I could go back in time When I had all conviction And there was no friction You could see the tension Of me shooting for the stars but now I'm Stumbling again Lost in the pills I've been Crumbling again Blown in the wind Learning to mend Breaking to bend I've been Wrestling with friends Broken again I was just an afterthought Dream so big an astronaut Did I ruin this or not I was just an afterthought Tie my laces in a knot (Stumbling again) Got tied up within this plot Leave my flowers out to rot (Lost in the pills I've been) The sunflowers that I bought (Crumbling again) My heart feels like it's been shot Feels like a sickness that I caught (Blown in the wind) Ask you out to a restaurant (Learning to mend) Cry to myself in the parking lot Just say I was smoking pot (Breaking to bend I've been) All bad habits that I taught (Wrestling with friends) All the demons that I fought Just to see those are the ones I brought (Broken again) I was just an afterthought Dream so big an astronaut Did I ruin this or not I was just an afterthought Dream so big an astronaut Did I f*ck up with this plot