december

It was the 20th of december I don't remember the weather What it was like, if it was day or night But I remember those bloodshot eyes I don't know what I was doing Maybe calling my girl? I remember her And how messed up I was when I left You were so upset and I didn't know Cause I was always on my phone Mother said don't leave him alone Cause we don't know where he might go Then the ambulance came I crushed all your pills I couldn't believe that this was real I think the devil might have bruised your heel I wish you cared 'bout how your family feels But I know when you're messed up you don't think right And that's cause I was in my head just the other night I was looking up "whats the easiest way to die?" We've fed into the biggest lie, thinking there's no point in life I'll just pop another pill, I'll just do it for the thrills What about your funeral when your body's lying still? I'll just break your grave in half, like I broke those drugs in half I'll just go insane if you leave then I'll go mad God we need you right now Cause I think that we're heading south God we need you right now Cause we won't live without you On my eighteenth birthday I'll hang myself in a tree And no one will know what happened to me I get manic episodes where I cant think But I don't drink so I just drown in my sorrows Won't like waking up tomorrow I always feel so hollow I cant solve my problems But maybe God can? I can't give up I'm sick of fake love But I don't say nothing Cause I don't want to look bad God we need you right now Cause I think that we're heading south God we need you right now Cause we won't live without you God we need you right now Cause it looks like we're going down