i thought about taking my life last night

feeling so depressed why am i a mess, yeah feel it in my head how do i express it wanna tell my friends wanna tell my best friend that i thought about taking my life last night but don't let my momma find out tell her she don't have a thing to worry about i don't need her wild with doubt i know she'll think i'm selfish, i'm not selfish- i'm just all by myself i'm not selfish, i'm just trying to find answers to my questions and peace of mind taking a breath cause i know that i have plenty of time to figure out why i'm here and alive when i'm depressed, it's cause i'm not understanding why i exist, yeah i struggle with this i don't know what to do yeah i wanna tell you i don't wanna lose my life just yet feel like i have so much left, i am not done yet no, i'm not done yet i know if i try my best, if i try my best i will make it through this