Minimal

God lately despite All I have to do I all I am doing And all I will do I don't feel equipped I don't feel worthy And compared to you I just feel minimal Thus far I been searching for words So long I'll be leaving this world All this just to be in my third All this just to be with the Lord I'm practicing often but not enough I pray for my coffin to be a bluff I pray for my roommates and all of my enemies Lord strike them down or put your terror in me It's been a long time since I picked up the pen It feels like it's often I visit again The words of my past and the thoughts of my sin How I wanted You but would go and pretend Like I had everything together Even when I wasn't conversating bout the weather Even though it wasn't like I didn't want what's right Even though I loved you I betrayed you even better And now I'm back with another relentless of effort Back to where I'm feeling stuck in this desert Back to what I know and back to what I love If I love it so much then why is it failing Back to what I thought was right from beginnings Back to what I should have known from my winnings Back to the Gospel and to the Holy One who died on the Cross Forgave us for all of our sinning It's true How'd I ever go without you How'd I ever live without two Now everything I do Points to how I'm feeling like I'm lost Seems like I could never pay the cost God it's you Covering the worries of this world Listen to our beckons so absurd Yes, it's you But lately despite all Your glory I'm cynical How come my efforts of late feel so minimal. This is a different story The story of a brother And what it is To seemingly give up everything you have Is this what it is to give up a dream I love you and gave you my everything From 3rd grade street games To real pads and neck sprains I suited up and fell in love with the game At 12 yrs. old I had the biggest of dreams Till coach yelled out Oklahoma Backs to the ground wait till the whistle blow Here we go I went headfirst God let me not be paralyzed That's when I saw my sinful parasites From there my game would change Despite my tight grip My aspirations somehow seemed to slip Transferring schools just to stay afloat Single mom guess that's how it goes Pray my skill would one day pay the bills But high school ball wouldn't climb those hills In fact, despite my accolades I remained offer less With no bets and no steps, I felt hopeless I'd be lyin' if I said I was happy They'll catch me wiling cause my hair is nappy I'll end up just another kid on the block Even so I'll be clingin' to God I took off anyway Made it to a D1 Transferred out faster To play another D1 Here I am some years later Feelin' like a failure Just fighting for a degree. To what degree must I love you for my dreams to pay off This ain't how it's supposed to be So lately I'll tell you how I feel Lately despite all your glory I'm cynical How come my efforts of late feel so minimal They do They do How come How come I can't back that up with the truth The truth is Despite my failure I still have your love Apart my shortcomings I have your love Apart from music I still have your love Apart from football I still have your love It's true It's true Yet I still feel it Oh, it's true How'd I ever go without you How'd I ever live without two Now everything I do Points to how I'm feeling like I'm lost Seems like I could never pay the cost God it's you Covering the worries of this world Listen to our beckons so absurd Yes, it's you It's you And lately despite all my failures I'm cynical Maybe cause compared to you I am minimal Minimal Minimal And if you take nothing else from this album Let it be that compared to God We are Minimal