Choked Up

My first love told me I'm not enough I couldn't give her up if I wanted to I'd rather make believe I could be everything That she would ever need but I've fallen through Down on luck, almost delirious But I know shedding tears won't change the truth Oh my love, you've given up on us But if you change your mind, I would follow you She wants nothing to do with me I don't even know what to say I'm all choked up, I lost her trust I lost the one thing that brings out hope in me Tell it to me straight, Do I stay should I give it away? Cause its been years and I'm afraid That my mistakes will still be holding me Is it too late to say I'm sorry I was misbehaving More than anyone you know how close I get to my temptation When I let liquor in I fail to see the situation The more I tried to medicate the more you'd lose your patience How'd we go from being lovers every day To this was a mistake, let's go our separate ways? In the end ironically, you wanted me to be wasted Made up your mind, so I'll follow through She wants nothing to do with me I don't even know what to say I'm all choked up, I lost her trust I lost the one thing that brings out hope in me Tell it to me straight, Do I stay should I give it away? Cause its been years and I'm afraid That my mistakes will still be holding me You're the glass, I'm the wine You're the braille, and I'm blind You're the one I rely on when I lose my mind Find a place, make some time Where we'll see eye to eye Maybe then, I'll give in And just swallow my pride She wants nothing to do with me I don't even know what to say I'm all choked up, I lost her trust I lost the one thing that brings out hope in me Tell it to me straight, Do I stay should I give it away? Cause its been years and I'm afraid That my mistakes will still be holding me