Prefer to Dream

It's been the same shit daily Getting high just to feel something lately I've been feeling so lost going crazy, fighting with myself Like I hate me, so many problems, I be facing bottle 'em up Till it breaks me, I swear to God, it's been the same shit Damn, It's been the same shit I don't even know what I'm really tryna say but These the thoughts in my head I be afraid of Fighting everyday till my till my day comes Prefer to dream than to wake up Say I'm alright it's all smiles on the surface But deep down inside I contemplate what's my purpose I ask myself, Is all this pain really worth it Is all this pain really worth it In my head a lot more than usual Things ain't been the same since the day of your funeral If only you knew how much you kept me strong Your guidance your voice now all that is gone These feelings they heavy they piling on I'm crashing I'm burning I'm losing control I know you would tell me to not let go so I'm holding on, wanna make you proud Yeah I wanna make you proud Gonna tour the world, yeah I'm gonna tour the world I know you looking down, yeah I know you looking down Smiling from the clouds, yeah you smiling from the clouds I don't even know what I'm really tryna say but These the thoughts in my head I be afraid of Fighting everyday till my till my day comes Prefer to dream than to wake up