Blurry Slates

When I sought a fairy tale outcome I wasted so much income But time I spent is what I resent And that's the truth, I finally know better Now I'm paralyzed like my feet have been fettered I'm looking ahead but I'm trapped in my old self I know you're alone and full of dismay I did my best to change that It's not my fault you're circling the drain And that's the truth, I finally know better You wanna be dead, though you couldn't be deader To my right now, I still wish you happiness Has it gotten too late for a fresh start? I don't want a slate blurred with erase marks Has it gotten too late for a fresh start? I don't want a slate blurred with erase marks Remnants of all of my regrets Remnants of chalk line silhouettes Now jackals cackle at my old attempts Of showing true affection And finding due rejection And that's the truth, I finally know better My hope broke down when my heart found a shredder Pressing ahead is hardly a fresh new start I want a clean slate but it's full of eraser marks