Karma

I think I was born without empathy All this vague imagery How am I supposed to understand All these scam artists Y'all starting to get to me Promise I'm doing the best that I can It's getting harder To live so unguarded I don't care what you put on Instagram That shit doesn't matter It's mostly unflattering I'll never tell you I'm more than I am My life a holding pattern-someone tell me when to get off Open the parachute descend before I run out of options Waste another week where I don't leave the block Hope no one here knows my name because I don't wanna start shit This shit got me exhausted Know I'm sweet but obnoxious Always speaking in code At least I'm tryna be honest Never quite sure what you wanted Thought I was sweet till I lost it Wish you'd leave me alone My mind a spiral I wanted to disappear How to vanish in America A phone pressed to my ear And my number hasn't changed Think I'm wasting my best years Up all night on the internet God just wasn't clear enough Can I keep from thinking too much Each weekend I wanna give up And that's why I get so drunk (Yeah how's that going for you?) I can't stop from running my mouth Never knowing what might slip out Hoping nothing gets around (Yeah how's that going for you?) I'm scared to death I'm not enough I'll never be all you wanted How long do I have to keep this up I'm scared to death I'm not ok It's fucked up The smoke in my lungs Just turned to a crutch I'm coming undone yeah Each fall The movies unchanged Been losing my faith It's all a rerun yeah I've lost touch With all of my friends Who's left to care for me? Be honest Does it get better? Does it get better? Does it get I know there's something out there I pray Kneel nightly hope for an escape I know that something out there's holy I know there's something out there oh wait