My Mother Says She's Proud of Me

I've got this feeling in my gut I'll never change I feel like throwing up And I can feel it in my lungs From all from smoking When I run I wish I'd give it up Think there's a party on tonight Later maybe you'd like to come? Because I need to feel the crush of bodies Other than my own Our faces flush it's such a rush To feel like maybe I'm okay for once Your touch is all I have to fall back on It's so tough to need that much When all I want is to want nothing at all Hold you close like it's the end of time We don't move much but the feelings nice And I'll feel lost soon as the morning hits The comedowns quick when you're expecting it It all felt easy back when we were kids And now I know the script by heart I was never under an illusion of grace And I'll carry my resentments till I'm gone It's so hard to be together and it's so hard moving on