There's a ghost

There's a ghost that walks behind me says his name is the past He follows me everywhere and gives me nothing but stress Wish I could shake this demon and it'll all be alright but all these memories keep creeping In and messing with my light If you could look through my eyes well what would you see Would you see something so long ago that happened to me Wish I could just let it out and finally be free If you could look through my eyes you'd somehow see If you ever wonder why I get so overwhelmed or why I can't always hang around Seems I can't ever close the book of my youth The hardest thing for me to do is let go of that truth My shadow walks with me I can't make him go away And he brings me darkness in the middle of my day And he tempts my hand with all the things he says He doesn't show himself to anyone else and just gets in my head I don't want to be some old man lost out on the road Running from the truth with his heavy load So if I could find a way to move on and be okay maybe I'd get off the road and find another way But it's hard to keep believing that there's anything great when everything you think about just makes it go away Don't really want to disappear but sometimes I wish I could Just for a little while so I don't ruin anything good I know I've been redeemed by God's holy grace I can see it as clearly as the mirror reflects my face Now I carry on with the past long gone trying to live for God's glorious will to be done Well I know my thoughts can betray me and my heart feels to deceive But I long for the day that I can stand back on my feet Jesus you forgive me and I'll never understand why I now can only live for you cause you saved my life I now can only live for you cause you saved my life