The Halo Effect

Why do you keep doubting me? Why you gotta get loud with me? I never lied bout who inspired me I studied them tirelessly Gave my brain a new wiring Used Lime Wire for pirating songs I probably couldn’t count all the viruses on My mother’s computer Me as a middle schooler I’m getting crueler And feeling lonely Cause everybody liked me til they got to know me It took too much time for me to realize that every guy that gives you five is not your homie Battle rapping & spazzing at people at lunch Was feeling like me on a hunt I don’t think I focused on eating as much No need–when you feeding off seeing em crushed Defeated, beaten & slumped, down in the dumps They bought into a dream Cause they thought it’d be fun but ended up wanting refunds I’m embracing my karma whenever it comes Rapping came natural; I wanted to sing Envisioned getting attention from bitches 100 degrees I think you get the visual Man, up until that point I was invisible Which is pretty typical for all my atypicals Looking back, I think I had a million hidden goals Thinking if I ever hit a note She might let me hit & stroke Remember feeling ashamed for Tryna sang with all them strained notes So I laid low And I trained more And my range rose Cause a nigga had the type of drive It would take to get behind a Range Rover Until the success of my peers I was suppressing my fears Felt I was left in the rear It appeared there were places that I can’t go Really had me out here feeling like my lane closed Unlike you, I didn’t have the aptitude To go down those avenues Shit was painful Should I regret not listening to things that you said about me using Drake’s flows? Aye man, even though I’m thankful, I don’t thank so Cause every nigga that’s dead to me does not deserve a halo Why do you keep doubting me? Why you gotta get loud with me? Why aren’t you ever proud of me? This isn’t just some clout to me Man, I treat this shit like I got mouths to feed Dark-side like that nigga Palpatine I’m 10 toes down & I’m flat footed I’ve done shit you wouldn’t believe but we got mad footage Niggas stay saying no cap but they cap crooked If nothing else these bitches tell me, “you ain’t bad looking” Couple bitches from back home Telling me that they want more But I put them hoes on hold Cause I treat em based on how much work they had put in