walking contradiction

Late at night Why am I still here? Caught a Look at you and I see yourself in me But is it Love I need or a, thrill to keep me from what's deep You said don't Come for me if it's, consistency you seek But I believed in you I believed in you more than myself And if it helps you can Lean on me 'Cause I know the pain we both share You push me away Leave me astray Should've left when I questioned Why was I still here Me and you, one and the same It's not a good thing And I should run away from you It's not I'm afraid Baby this just feels safe And, those things don't ever end well I'm a contradiction yes I know I like who I am As long as I can protect myself Protection from what I won't face