Broken

I think a nigga I think a nigga I think a nigga broken Broken Broken Broken I think I'm broken I'm losing focus On how to open up I got emotions That don't see motion They bottled up Its kinda tough I've had enough And God say No you don't Just when I try to go be merciless, he show I shoulda choked I see my libra is a diva and that balance is a bitch Because I try to be like Christ but in this time I need revenge I ain't holier than thou, at any point I could descend And meet you on your fuckin level, let the stupid games begin You ain't the only one to treat me like I'm shit, nah its a trend And I've studied all the charts to see its dark for me at end You just fuckin' did me wrong and ask me go and just forgive Like I share my sins with you and tell you demons thats within Don't tell me that you love me when you wrong me and defend Another fucking story that you find a way to spin You think I'm stupid don't you Nah maybe thats projection Of how my parents made me feel when I would go through adolescence They way you bullshit vitrescent And it just feel depressing How trust is just a fantasy of love and real connections And I cant be a Calvinist cuz if this was pre destined Then I don't see a point of hoping that you learn your lesson I'm digressing Find myself up on this soap box again Just preaching to the choir of the broken and in sin Trynna figure out the ways to smile Without it being fuckin fake because you know you got me down Almost lost the girl I love, and yet you seen me with a smile I seen my homies lose the same and end up just breaking down Like maybe I got something wrong with me Because obviously I cover my emotions with "Im no bitch" when I decide to speak I look inside the mirror and see my pride is me And No, I ain't proud of me But me against the world is how I start to see So who is thee Defender of my pain When I'm caught up in my rage Its just me myself and I So I see distance keeps me safe Got me talking to the dead because I see how you remain The fuckin same, I shoulda known that dead people never change Im finna break Better pray That Jesus finds a way to save As I'm walking on the lake of all my sorrows Take a break