I Forgot

This shit make me wanna smoke my stress away nigga No cap F*ck it nigga uh, we just gon try to get through it… Look Making no money, to make it all worse I got me a bill I ain't paid since the first Imma swallow my pride and ill clock into work Right now I'll sell crack just to make it all work Right now I'll take 'cets just to find all the perks Of me having a conscience while business is hurt Look for my hope, man I dig and I search Just to find me a nugget but what is it worth Only enough its gon' make me keep digging And dig my own grave its a terrible feeling What do you know about dying without The thing you ain't had but f*ck living without Look to the clouds and see niggas with clout That arose to they status for running they mouth Never said shit with some substance But look to the ground and then all of them love it You grab on you your shovel and keep on your diggin Girl lookin down and don't ask how you feelin Show her the rocks that you got, she don't listen She not impressed with how far you been diggin She look to the clouds like something is wrong Turning me off to play all they songs I keep on digging, I keep on my digging I keep on my digging just looking for something I'm looking for depth or for something with substance Im looking for somebody that prolly f*ck with The will to keep going, depression is hunting I see that bitch hunting, she stalking at night I fucked a few times and she ruined my life Saw that shit coming, she said its alright Finally got up and got back on my grind Just to realize theres more dirt In my life Where am I digging? What am i gone find What is the goal that I'm having in mind Am I looking for powers thats gon help me fly Or am I digging this hole so they marvel my climb Will I find gold? If I do is it mine Will I find diamonds? Do all of them shine Will I find sermons that God left behind What will I find? I don't know, I keep going Further I go man the distance keeps growing I'm losing some friends that I've had since the past I assume its because they still live there, thats that And I take all my anger and bottle it up Put it on shelf that I have and I call it the shelf of Elijah ain't giving no fucks Been building for years so I know its robust But one day its gon fall when I had me enough Now I keep digging and starting to think Three feet away from the gold that I need To take to the surface to make my momma proud Ascend to place that my girl look in clouds Take just to show to my father I did All the shit that I said as a kid Hold up the gold like I represents peace Represents grind and my T-I-M-E Represents everything that I was looking for but in the meantime forgot about me Forgot that my place is not up there in clouds Forgot that my worth is not with those on ground Forgot that I never needed validation The fact I forgot it had made me impatient Forgot that that gold cant do too much saving And when niggas get it, they see that its dangerous How did I forget