Thankful

And I don't mean to be depressing Why I can't admit that I been sitting here stressing Why I can't sleep without you showing acquiesce The fact that you don't see me just be fucking with my flexing I need distance Start hurting the ones around me Seeing how I'm lost embarrassing that you found me Prolly spitting flows to cover the fact 'm drowning Travel through hills and valleys to see the shit I'm amounting Too Like what the f*ck I got to lose If I stay here on my path I gave it all on mile two I done read too much scripture to not smile through trials too Wore my sins up on my sleeve Would you let satan style you I wore my arrogance with pride Proud of the Gucci that my stubbornness just make me feel inside Ain't a soul like me All my sins have been designed F*ck no this not Versace This Elijah Johnsõn I was satans padawon I traveled on I be scared that you gon skip if I just rap right through a song I be scared that imma make it and I see I don't belong I be scared that imma prophet and what I seen ain't long Over horizons Be praying that he was lying Or maybe I was just trippin That dream did have me flying Why the f*ck am I shaken By different sayings and statements And visions that's shown to me whenever I'm not awaken I'm wondering is it sin if I say I'm tired of patience Like why the f*ck am I waiting I did the fasting and praying And waiting while I put faith in The only one that really is strong enough to do some saving But met with failure adjacent Which led to me just complaining The reason why I'm in training I thought I could trick God to force him into behaving Without me making the changes A formula for success I get it start acting faithless His words is like honey I get it start acting tasteless Maybe I'm too honest for a billion streams Maybe gotta purpose what's way bigger than my little dreams Wish they was in symmetry I thought I was rapping for the one Why I'm mad that they not listening All the things I fail to see Is 20 streams a week is still 20 streams Ten years in the game I got a couple people listening Maybe I should learn to be grateful Don't focus on the table Everything could change at the moment you say thank you So thank you I thank you for my journey I thank you for the fact that when I needed you you heard me Whenever I got prideful you took the time to hurt me Really came and found me when I was searching And for that I'm saying thank you Thank you for your love Thank you for showing me that I was always enough Thank you for your strength Without it I would be done Thank you for your provision you did it way more than once Thank you for your presence you was there in all my pain In the times where I cursed you you didn't fade away I thank you for my gifts and I thank you for my grace I thank you for my skills and every time a nigga ate And just complained about my plate Let me tell you thank you For everything you done I can tell you in my rain Cuz I was saved by the Son So let me tell you Thank you And for that I'm saying Thank you I said for that I'm saying thank you So let me tell you Thank you