Wishing Wells

I put my hope in a coin With a flick of the thumb Put a wish in the air And hope my dreams gonna come Feel like Ive worked enough It doesn't matter all the shit that I've done I don't think its gonna change outcomes I watch the coin before it boings see the way that it flips Heads or tails and if it fails I know my life is a bitch Tell me why I feel the worse when life be life-ing and shit But she be blessing other niggas, she a trifling lil bitch See I been down for too long, start to lose my motivation Sit down and play a beat but don't see where I could take it See the ones with million views, and I don't think that I can make it Whats the moment I lost hope? I don't know I couldn't name it Trynna keep a steady hand when I see my ship is sinking Reminisce on old songs and all the sudden start to sang it Shit be like drive slow Hold it Cant stop Wont it Hurt way more when you see that you was focused Pot holes in your road and yet you fucked around a drove it Crazy to keep going but know you got locomotion And the moment that you stop might be the day that they notice I'm tired of the prayers where I don't ever get an answer And niggas look at me like I'm a pastor You show me your belief and I respond to it with laughter Like don't you see my life is a disaster My momma don't think that I'll never make it, she think that I really am Not just money where her mouth is, put her hope right in my hands Trusting in her fuckin son to flip the shit and make a band Just for me to see me fuckin fail again If you dont think that drive me crazy, mothafucka think again Trynna find the fuckin balance between that and all my sins Trynna make a fuckin hit to start my dream and meet some ends And yet the only thing thats flowing from a mothafucka pen Is only pain and my regrets Where the hook? I just fucking rapped right through that bitch I bet Homie stomping on the yard, how can I go miss a step I been keen to all the whispers when I don't keep secrets kept That was a bar, I'm not alarmed, if you ain't get it overslept Imma tell you that I'm money if you never cared to check I don't know if its a lot that I got left Put my hope up in a coin Let it flick up off my thumb Put a wish up in the air And I hope my dreams gonna come I ain't really superstitious Yea I know that this shit dumb But leave it on the floor before I'm done I see my coin hit the water Shit barely made a splash It get lost in other wishes niggas made in the past Got me losing out on hope Find myself just getting mad Think I'm finna lose my drive Better that than fuckin crash Trynna keep my fuckin cool Better that than fuckin spazz Trynna get a get a beat from metro And I can only catch the dash Niggas trying to be so first and end up just being so last I put my hope in a coin And with a flick of the thumb Put a wish in the air And hope my dreams gonna come Feel like Ive worked enough It doesn't matter all the shit that I've done I don't think its gonna change outcomes And yet I want you wish me well