Paradise

Underwater conversations with the people I love most Trapped inside this body, an unwilling and undecided host Spiders crawling out of my ears so I cannot hear what you are saying to me Your instructions are unclear, where should I steer if there's no wheel to guarantee? Surprise surprise, I crashed inside of the thought that one day I will die Looking in the mirror, an unfamiliar face I don't recognize Living a life that doesn't feel like mine Like-minded people always pass me by But I remind myself every night that it will go away in time Trapped inside my brain, this spineless game With no follow-through Told me twice but I can't remember Cause my brain doesn't know what to do When you smile at me, sincerely At least that's what I think Check the time, a due goodbye But you're busy in paradise Something's in the air that wants me to suffocate Somethings in my mind that won't let me think straight A static strains my eyes awake so I'm forced to see another day When all I want is a stagnant calm that forces today away What if I said that I wanna be dead? What would you think? or would you just repeat That it's all just in my head? Trapped inside my brain, this spineless game With no follow-through Told me twice but I can't remember Cause my brain doesn't know what to do When you smile