Starve

Some call it an afterlife Some call it born again I call it suicide That's what makes us different I wanna feel your light But I'm buried in my sin I wanna feel your afterlife But by the end of this race, I'm not gonna win I wonder if I don't feed myself I might starve I wonder if the feeling will set me apart I don't make sense of these thoughts, I just write them down Because what's worse than no solution but a hopeless sound? Some call it crying out Some call it written sins I call it what I think about That's why I have the pen So much but so little control You tell me to let the pen go But this poetry breeds me a light Far better than any afterlife I wonder if I don't feed myself I might starve I wonder if the feeling will set me apart I don't make sense of these thoughts, I just write them down Because what's worse than no solution but a hopeless sound? Two nations are in thy head If she was here, I'd be dead I'd pull her first by the heel If she was near, this life she'd steal God made me crave for the bowl Give up her life, what a toll I'm so guilty for the past I wish I could take it back I took her title When I was just a child I made her give up her right So that I could be alive I'm not ready for this light Take me to your afterlife I didn't wanna be first Jacob, please let me reverse I didn't wanna be first Jacob, please let me reverse I didn't wanna be first Jacob, please let me reverse I didn't wanna be first Jacob, please let me reverse I didn't wanna be first Jacob, please let me reverse I didn't wanna be first Jacob, please let me reverse I didn't wanna be first Jacob, please let me reverse I didn't wanna be first Jacob, please let me reverse I didn't wanna be first Jacob, please let me be I wonder if I don't feed myself I might starve I wonder if the feeling will set me apart I don't make sense of these thoughts, I just write them down Because what's worse than no solution but a hopeless sound?