Can't Seem To Numb

I can't make you stay I can't change the way you feel Can't seem to numb the pain Can't seem to find a way to deal with Losing my escape What was my mistake? Did I push you away? Nothing seems to matter When you're not here by my side When you took your love You stole the color from my life Just look me in the eyes Leaving all these cuts before you're leaving me behind You were my addiction Now I'm going through withdrawals I just want to overdose and let go of it all We're toxic and codependent I can't defend it Just know that everytime I said I loved you I meant it I can't make you stay I can't change the way you feel Can't seem to numb the pain Can't seem to find a way to deal with Losing my escape What was my mistake? Did I push you away? Took a couple shots to try to show you the real me I need a conversation Yeah you need to speak clearly Like what's the point of love If we have different motivations And what's the point in us If we don't got communication And when I'm vulnerable I beg don't throw it back at me You shut your heart I needed love, I needed empathy You were so quick to throw me out and treat me like a stranger Now I'm just a stranger I can't make you stay I can't change the way you feel Can't seem to numb the pain Can't seem to find a way to deal with Losing my escape What was my mistake? Did I push you away?