Now or Never

I grab a pen And go in Every now and then No matter where I've been I'm always it Like an addict I must admit This shit Can be toxic But I'm sicker Than most I never boast Well maybe a little When I scribble Words on a page You mistake it for rage This is my therapy While these other guys A parody Of rappers they wanna be I'm rarity Yo peep the clarity Cause I'm finally Seeing clear Tell me who you fear Say my name 3 times I appear Grip the mic And I destroy Matter of fact I deploy All these deadly lines My flow shines When I combine A beat And a rhyme So basic So face it This fake shit Won't last I outlast But shit let's be honest I'm beyond this So I reminisce When life was pure bliss Cause I'd be remiss If I didn't tell you I almost called it quits Cause all this stress Finesse your brain Into thinking your insane Telling you Yo, you need the money and fame But it's all a façade Got me praying to god Like what do I gotta do To make it Maybe I'll fake it But I don't wanna be like everyone else And dwell On the hand dealt to me Tell me who am I supposed to be A 9-5 worker That's still living on bigger dreams Or do I risk it all And sell my soul for the streams But now I'm digger deeper Breaking the surface Got me searching for my purpose Like will I make it? I don't know But I'll just enjoy the show And give you a place to go When everything is fucked And your mind overflow I'm stacking ammo For my arsenal Watch me blow Like Chernobyl So versatile At the mic I wonder what it feels like To be everything and more I'd rather sleep on the floor Than be where I've been before Yo I'm a nerd to the core But I accept it Never deflect it This beat I fuckin' wrecked it Put this shit in a syringe And then I fuckin' inject it Into the bloodstream Of a fiend Yeah you know what I mean I've been obsessed with rap Since I turned 15 Almost a decade In this game My place I proclaim I'll be rapping till the day You motherfuckers know my name