Softly

Last night I caught myself Hoping I would dream of someone else I didn’t stop myself And I got scared so quick, but not enough to stop the wishing If you don’t let me, I won’t tell Lay it all before you ‘cause I never pray to God Maybe you’d forgive me, not like it happens a lot What if I don’t love you in the morning? If feelings change and there’s no warning I’m scared that you already saw me What if I get mad when things get easy? If I don’t want you to believe me Even if I say it softly Even if I say it softly Sit across the table from you Too unsure to say I love who I am being honestly And I don’t know if it’s just guilt But I want you to be angry Will you please not be too patient with me? Is silence still the killer if I never have to say: “I’m scared as hell that I’d be fine if you just walked away”? What if I don’t love you in the morning? If feelings change and there’s no warning I’m scared that you already saw me What if I get mad when things get easy? If I don’t want you to believe me Even if I say it softly If I ever say it, I ever say it Will you stop me, will you stop me? If I ever say it, I ever say it Will you stop me, will you stop me? If I say it, if I say it Please don’t stop me, please don’t stop me If I say it, if I say it Please don’t stop me, please don’t stop me What if I don’t love you in the morning? If feelings change and there’s no warning I’m scared that you already saw me What if I get mad when things get easy? If I don’t want you to believe me Even if I say it softly