Miself, Pt. 2

I was the boy with the emotions The boxing gloves in the corners Depression in the home Battle scars that im mourning Drugs was the only giver God I'm a soulful sinner Diabetic with shots She dont know about this trigger Back in my iller days Back in my high school ways Back in my suicidal thoughts as I'm talkin with Jay She proceeded to pull me Like if her name was lucy Baddest chick in the gym and these weights began to lift loosely Shes a gimmick who fooled me The jokers laughing cartoony The decks in my hand She folded up when she notice me looking Friends just turned into rivals Music was my survival Baddest bitch in the hood and she fell for the boy with bibles Something bout her was different The liquor seemed to be kickin I went from the truth to visions The one to the one who did it Pain just seemed to be rippin How could I ever stitch it Left the man for the boy when she noticed that I was different I was a roller coaster But who was she riding for motion Up and down The devotion To keep my sleeve as emotion She gotta know this I I came to notice That You left unnoticed Now The chambers loaded Now You came to mourn this Now You sleepin soulless While I'm waking up in the morning with battle scars that are swollen My chest enormous Anxiety building up every moment F*ck you but these words are what these punk had you moaning Ida swam out the ocean You gave me nothing but thrown in Into the sharks when I'm thronen You had me drownin to floatin To think that loves metaphoric Standing tall like a torres Took everything out of me You tower down I restore us Why I gotta put myself in position To have you listen Your love is fiction To malicious To catch your image You slitten wrists when you missing Everything that I've given Hoping next time you aim for that spot when you know what I'm feelin if