i can't

Twenty's so close I can taste it Life is moving forward should embrace it But lately all I seem to do is hate it Every smile that you've seen I prolly faked it Gotten more reclusive staying off Different forms of social media All these posts tend to have me mixed up The real world tend to not give a f*ck And you gotta be tough Nobody's gonna pull you out the dust Hardly have a bitch that I can trust Unneeded bullshit in my life I gotta flush I just can't believe that I made it I just can't believe that I made it this far I thought i'd be dead by eighteen Lately I Just can't believe I'm alive Childhood trauma holds me back I'll admit that sometimes i'm a slack off I really wanna get it in my bag I made it this far might as well Fucking take advantage of this life that i've been given Every now and then it starts to feel more like a prison I don't even know how I even made it this distance I don't understand it I know it's life don't wanna take it for granted But if i'm being honest there's sometimes I can't stand it I get so anxious then I wish I would vanish I just can't believe that I made it I just can't believe that I made it this far I thought i'd be dead by eighteen Lately I Just can't believe I'm alive