Why?

Well well well Here I go again I guess I'm prone to this living Seen it all before I ain't surprised at myself at all Gotta learn to not let love make decisions I fell for every trap you set em good awareness was weak And in every hole that's what happens when you into deep You fish for happiness it bite but the bobber never sinks Uneven paths lead you on but never fall in sync I chose the route that drained me out Left me scared and broke Trust and believe that if it glitters doesn't mean it's gold Don't ride the wave it be deceaving when you see it flow Next thing you know you out defeated stuck and all alone Sheesh Now I can't stop it I'm a fein for your approval I done lost all control yea Chasing chasing after you I'm doin all I can even if it's steady eating at my soul yea Never learn a lesson I just keep making my mistakes Crying broken hearted baby boy that's the price you'll pay I can't understand why I'm under attack and that's why I gotta ask Why? Do I have to love em till it all runs dry Told myself don't do it but I won't comply Keep falling for the same routines and then complain why my heart aches Oh why? Don't l love myself enough or open my eyes Too people wronging me and showing their disguise I'm too nieve I know it I'm praying for the day that it all goes away Wondering why Why am I quiet why am I distant why am I introverted I gotta cage and imma stay in it Wait for my pain to nourish I cannot win I try and I try homie I lost my courage Wish I could beat it everyday I fight so hard to purge it What ever happened to my feelings or what I want in life Guess it don't matter I sat back and cherished you Everything you say come wit stipulations forget it dawg My mental unstable if you asking for the truth I'm going insane How could I be your hero when I'm the one needing saved We are not the same and I won't entertain The bs you addicted to inflecting all the pain I'm ashamed Of myself cause I fell for it Chest shot now my blood pouring Cold world my mind shattered picking up the pieces tryna nail board it Steady ducking dodging hoping you would see the picture Instead you only cared bout you and rolled on me like swisher Sweet I cannot trip over circumstances I'm greater than Straight focus my path narrow won't double back I ain't playin man In the right place at the right time finna overcome what ya'll haterd planned You done f'd up and you tried hard but now this the time I go super sayin I'm coming wit the heat like a real top hitta My hits real no I won't spar witcha Gotta get it the money won't back out I'm back in my bag yea bet I want rock witcha I am now cuttin the snakes out my the grass Leaving behind everything in the past Hate it or love it they gone do ya dirty I knew it already but still gotta ask Why? Do I have to love em till it all runs dry Told myself don't do it but I won't comply Keep falling for the same routines and then complain why my heart aches Oh why? Don't l love myself enough or open my eyes Too people wronging me and showing their disguise I'm too nieve I know it I'm praying for the day that it all goes away