(THE TRUTH)

Lately I don't want no one to know my whereabouts Because every day it's been death's door I'm staring out I have a big heart but I fixate on things I don't care about At times I feel my fams n friends don't clearly hear me out Everyone want a piece of my time I don't even know how to manage myself At times It seems like I don't care about my own health My mind thinks about danger and I flirt with disaster And I wonder what it's like to see from the perspective of Casper I wake up every day and the clock is moving faster Running out of time and mind feeling is scattered Maybe this is why I used to get higher than Saturn I don't know how or when these dark thoughts initiated I bury my face in my pillow because I feel asphyxiated Maybe I'm really meant to be an actor Because of the amount of pain I hide with this laughter I'm predictably unpredictable Make you think this is how I feel When really I don't just to satisfy you And to see a smile from you Deep down inside me is blue Because I cover the truth The longer I keep it in the deeper I submerge in the pool Am I a kid trying to break free or am I just a fool? Scared to be used like a tool But the truth is I'm already screwed I say yes to everyone because I want to be seen as cool Not staying on the right path Leading to this bloodbath Do I want to end up with a toe tag ??? Nah For now, I'll stay to myself Just be on my dolo I think about crossing the street when the light turn Rojo As I get older I realize nights are just colder Because I avoid my heart being void and fall over F*CK!!! Every time I drink I remain sober Because the truth is clear I can clearly feel the weight on my shoulders I'm depressed I'm stressed but I'll just say I'm tired My creativity drained I haven't been inspired The Truth is I'm dying of thirst I feel like I'm about to burst I shine bright like a star But everything feels wrong and is getting worse God, please show me a sign If you reading this please don't cry I know my future is bright But what if can't handle the shine Can't stay stagnant I don't want to stand in this line Truth is I really want to fly But now is not my appointed time The Truth is I'm living a lie It can be clearly seen in my eyes