Some Feelings

Six months in, my whole world is crumbling around me And I just want to know, I just want to know why Everything is heavier now I'm screaming without making a sound Wish somebody could hear me, I'm losing my mind And I, I can't find myself anywhere now I don't know why And I, I am sick and tired of lying through my teeth (I'm fine) Because I don't know if you'd listen to me, but I can't keep going through the motions Waiting for someone to save me From the heaviness in my bones Am I turning into someone I don't know I don't have all the answers I'm just eighteen Trying to figure out if I'm living a lie or living the dream Six months in, can't shake the feeling That I'm not where I need to be, and I don't know why Everyone wants a future for me, but what's the point If I don't feel like me anymore And I, I can't find myself anywhere now I don't know why And I, I am sick and tired of lying through my teeth (I'm okay) Because I don't know if you'd believe me, but I can't keep going through the motions Waiting for someone to save me From the heaviness in my bones Am I turning into someone I don't know I don't have all the answers I'm just eighteen Trying to figure out if I'm living a lie or living the dream I know everyone's watching me Waiting for me to live out all their dreams Don't want to be a disappointment But I don't feel like me I know everyone's watching me Waiting for me to live out all their dreams Can't carry the weight of these expectations Don't want them to bury me So I've got some feelings to work out Wish I knew how to clear my way through All the doubts and fears and teenage years And live without losing the rest of me But I, I can't find myself anywhere now Think I know why