Punch Drunk

With my hands in my pockets Standing like a little sister Know you like me a little better when I beg When we both pretend That what you're giving's what I'm after I just love to chase the difference And you get off on your affect I needed to feel small to someone And masochism's just more fun When you like to deny me in the moment When being below you Was just where you wanted me I don't wanna get it this way I don't wanna wake up again like this Punch drunk, filling up on whatever it is you decide to give I'm not as careless as I say I am To you when I want you badly When I'm so sick of my lonely But too proud to ask you to love me With my hands on my mouth I'm sitting down in the shower Had to pop my jaw to fit you in And it doesn't matter How I feel about it now When I guess that's what I wanted then I needed to feel close to someone And the best you could do Was close enough for me in the moment When being below you Was just where I thought that I should be I don't wanna get it this way I don't wanna wake up again like this Punch drunk, filling up on whatever it is you decide to give I'm not as careless as I say I am To you when I want you badly When I'm so sick of my lonely But too proud Oh, I'm just too proud I'll tell you now You never pulled one over on me I know how I played it How I used you to punish me You took the bait I'm not my place in your hierarchy