Ethereal Junkie

I'm afraid of honesty Why, it's only me in my head Alongside my hypocrisy I'm hellbent on fooling my friends It's quieter uptown I still can't hear myself think I'm up here in the rafters So far from Avenue C And here I am again Making nothing out of something I've got to stop saying sorry For breathing I don't mean it I'm an Ethereal Junkie I'm high on your idea of me What do you think of me? I'll fix it all by myself I think it's weak when you ask for help Why am I fixed on that? I hate that I think like that And here I am again Making nothing out of something I've got to stop saying sorry For breathing I don't mean it Ethereal Junkie I'm under the influence of what you think of me Surface level sympathies Pretending everything's fine when it's not I'm too busy covering everything up Lose me drunk on the subway Two o'clock in the morning No use trying to find me I'm awake in someone else's dreams You can't reach me I'm afraid of honesty Why, it's only me in my head I've made sure of that