Trauma

I have a shrapnel-filled soul Left over from the battles I've been through I don't mean to war against you But my defenses are up I have landmines in my mind Going off without any warning Every thought so close to exploding Keeping us apart I hate that I am constantly fighting Not living, I am only surviving Each step and breath feel like I am dying And the war rages on And on People feel like enemies Even when they try to love me Their love is like a weapon against me Breaking down my walls Love breaks down my walls I hate that I am constantly fighting Not living, I am only surviving Each step and breath feel like I am dying And the war rages on The war rages on I wish that I was brave enough To leave the war behind I've been fighting all my life To find some peace of mind And there are moments when I think that peace is possible It's hard to believe It's hard to have hope And I need hope Not living, I am only surviving Each step and breath feel like I am dying And the war rages on The war rages on I have a shrapnel-filled soul Left over from the battles I've been through I don't mean to war against you But my defenses are up