ALONE2AM

It's like there's something on my mind that I can't say Know you don't want me to go but I can't stay I'm not saying I'm finished just in a bad place But will I ever really make it out this damn maze I'm in a sad state but when I make it out I'm headed to a damp cave 'Cause ain't nobody ever love me in the last place I needed something I was looking in the worst place I need to find it going through some of my worst days And I'm so sick of just living up on the edge I went and called my demon he sitting under my bed tryna Get inside my head I can't let him He tryna hold a vendetta It had me under the weather I had to fight back But I'm hopin I could fight back I'm just hopin I could fight back All this pressure I'm just hopin I could fight back Real shit I m just hopin I could fight back Reminiscing about the days Back when I was young I was having fun Turned seven then I tried to run I tried to die when I was eight I ain't have no one I was sitting lookin off the bridge Ain't nobody come And I wonder what would happen if I got a gun I was looking at the love I wish I had me some Nobody cared till I started seeing money come Everything changed man I swear And I don't wanna go Back again I wanna laugh again Only on the gas when I pass to friends Pessimist inside me got me going bad again Bad again I need another Ativan I don't even like myself but I be practicing 'Cause I'm just tryna make it off this fuckin mattress and I been tryna get back to the old me But that involves going to the past again So I'm done It's like there's something on my mind that I can't say Know you don't want me to go but I can't stay I'm not saying I'm finished just in a bad place But will I ever really make it out this damn maze I'm in a sad state But when I make it out I'm headed to a damp cave Because ain't nobody ever love me in the last place I needed something I was looking in the worst place I need to find it going through some of my worst days And I'm so sick of just living up on the edge I went and called my demon he sitting under my bed Tryna Get inside my head I can't let him He tryna hold a vendetta It had me under the weather I had to fight back But I'm hopin I could fight back I'm just hopin I could fight back All this pressure I'm just hopin I could fight back Real shit I m just hopin I could fight back