Dreams

Look Had a dream one day I would change the world Told my family and friends I would make the most Out of depression and wrestlin' in my own head Try to escape this but I'm stuck in my own bed (Yeah) Let me take you back the beginning of all this Livin' life with the flower I was given to use this To free me save me from the loneliness inside me It worked (till the flower wilted me away) I was broken, tour myself to shreds over needin' the Thing that says for us we should believe in the season It worked, mmm well I thought it worked Turns out my pain came from deep in the broken works I can't believe this, thought I had freed this (whoop) I guess there's nothin' I can say to give me treatment (yeah) I'm tired, weak, broken, and afraid That's what I get for not knowing you're insane Yeah How am I supposed to feel you played me (whoop) Yeah How am I supposed to feel you played me I try to do my best but that never seems enough Gettin' swallowed by the thoughts but I try to carry on If there's one thing I learned on this planet we call earth Is that it's useless, refuse this, I don't wanna do this The thoughts in my head keep on tellin' me to go If this keeps on going on man I think I'm gonna blow I'm tired of dealin' with this it keeps going on The pressure comes back when I think it has moved on And it's all because of you, yes you I said it I tried to fix the problem but the pain won't let me Sit down, get ready, it's time for the show Put your hats on, now you're gonna know (Yeah) There came a time in a sense when I felt happy (yeah) I wasn't rollin' in the mud and feeling empty (empty) Came outside to see the trees weren't leafless (leafless) Cross my hands and pray up to Jesus (hallelujia) People in my life they were helpin' me along Gave me life to breathe they even sang me a song This feelin' didn't last for long I wasn't feelin' very strong It came back to stay that's why I'm writin' up this song Man I'm so depressed I don't want to keep movin' Pushing them away I am so stupid Why am I like this I don't understand Tryna keep movin' I'm stuck in the sand The sand is my anger I can't make a sound (sound) How it holds onto me bringin' me down (down) I'm fallin' believin' that I'm screaming hate (hate) That's not how it is but my minds a dark place Yeah How am I supposed to feel you played me (whoop) Yeah How am I supposed to feel you played me I try to do my best but that never seems enough Gettin' swallowed by the thoughts but I try to carry on If there's one thing I learned on this planet we call earth Is that it's useless, refuse this, I don't wanna do this The thoughts in my head keep on tellin' me to go If this keeps on going on man I think I'm gonna blow I'm tired of dealin' with this it keeps going on The pressure comes back when I think it has moved on And it's all because of you, yes you I said it I tried to fix the problem but the pain won't let me Sit down, get ready, it's time for the show Put your hats on, now you're gonna know Stress starts building, anger keeps on fuming Bottle my emotions man they keep on spilling (Hey) Can't do this any more, keep em at the door Throw away the key why does this become a chore? The bottles high and it's takin my mind I can't do anything to stop this gonna let it fly It's time for it to blow so buckle up and get ready 3, 2, 1 I don't want to fall asleep, I don't want to fade away I don't want to fight my demons but it seems they're here to stay I don't want to cry tonight, I don't want to feel alright I don't want to see outside 'cause there seems to be no sign I can't keep myself from fallin', I can't keep myself from stallin' I can't keep myself from choosin' the best place I'm not lyin' Can anybody hear me? I'm puttin' out a sign No one ever listens right? Guess I'll be alright The thoughts in my head keep on tellin' me to go If this keeps on going on man I think I'm gonna blow I'm tired of dealin' with this it keeps going on The pressure comes back when I think it has moved on And it's all because of you, yes you I said it I tried to fix the problem but the pain won't let me Stand up, shows over, it's time to say goodbye Put your hats on, I'll see you next time