by myself

I can not be by myself I can not be by myself I get lost inside my own head Why'd you let me go that day, was there anything i couldve said? Dreaming all the pain away Drinking makes me feel safe Pour me up another one, 'cus I don't wanna be okay No I don't wanna be okay Last night I dreamt of you again Feel so close I think i'm lying again I don't wanna be with me, why would you, oh why would you? Are you lost without me too, or did you find somebody new? I pour my heart into these lines You saw me bleeding, did you even mind? I use my pain for my devotion Take the pen and cut me open Write with blood, I hope you notice I'm numb to what you left me with Can't off myself, you know i can't commit Hate me all you want, I'd still let you win You're my addiction, I could never quit I can not be by myself I can not be by myself I get lost inside my own head Why'd you let me go that day, was there anything i couldve said? Dreaming all the pain away Drinking makes me feel safe Pour me up another one, 'cus I don't wanna be okay No I don't wanna be okay I'm laying on the floor tonight You should see me as I almost die Do you hear me as i'm screaming out my lungs? I can't breathe and I can't flee, from a past that's haunting me Try running when you're paralyzed Try smiling when you're traumatized It's okay baby don't be sad, you can love and hate me Girl I get it, I've been hard to be with I been hard to love I know it's been so hard for you I know i'm not the person that i used to be Don't hate yourself when you should hate me I can not be by myself I can not be by myself I get lost inside my own head Why'd you let me go that day, was there anything i couldve said? Dreaming all the pain away Drinking makes me feel safe Pour me up another one, 'cus I don't wanna be okay No I don't wanna be okay