Small Hands

Time's been the worst to me as far as I can see I'll put my mind and be kind I can't imagine what my life is like Alive in the sunlight Your light fits in my small hands Never once did I regret saying that I feel like dying I just regret that I've never lived At least it's always felt that way The highest I've ever been Was at my most devastating low Gosh does creativity know how to flow Music saved my life but god damn Does it make me feel lifeless And when it rains I look up to hope But I just see the world sky less When my colors fade I think to look at my iris But when I cry i can barely see past my closed eyelids They say life flies by but not for the mind of a pilot Wishing I could end my subscription to this body 'Cause my only intention was to trial this Proud to say I never bled my wrist Life is but a haze and I can read the mist That's why they say ignorance is bliss Because I know the sun is behind the clouds But that's just something I don't really miss So I tend to forget where my shadows come from 'Cause I just see the light in it And then she came into my life And told me she just wants to brighten it And as dark as it's been, I see the sun in her eyes so I won't try to fight this