Turn Me Into a Ghost

I leave the bathroom light off So I know you're not in there Worrying about your face Or the knots throughout your hair How is this fair? I keep your pillows close 'Cause I'm not a fan of your clothes Staring at the ceiling I wouldn't dare hang from Why am I numb? I want to be a ghost so badly So I can be around the ones That Haven't hurt me Safely I tend to stay inside So I can feel safe somewhere Worrying about my feelings Is something I don't really share How is this fair? Where am I going from here 'Cause I am a part of this world That I don't really want to be in Why am I numb?