Unspoken Pain

I hate you I hate yo ass nigga I hate how you go hang with homies Come home and want some ass nigga Then always screaming I’m tripping Like I did your ass something Then you apologize, playing victim that’s dumb shit I hate how you so calm when I’m talking to you Where’s the emotions I hate how you don't care, but always there That’s playing with my focus I need devotion, I need peace And I hate you can’t help me find it I hate how you deny it Or even more how divided, we’ve become But f*ck that, cause I hate how I love you I hate how you have grown to be a man But still, you are troubled I put up with your shit, and still when you lost me You found another bitch I hate how it was killing me softly Don’t touch me, nigga get off me And another thing I hate is how because of your cheating In the back of my mind It’s a bitch when your phone ringing I told you get your shit together nigga I thought you listened Keep fuckin’ around And you won’t even make my honorable mention And now I hate how we happy I hate how you so mean to me But such a great fuckin’ daddy And I just hate that I am feeling a way because I'm pregnant I’m not sure that I mean it Maybe a case of depression I’m an emotional wreck, and Then I love the way you love me You fuckin’ right I do, and if you believe That inside our imperfections is such a beautiful dream I know that I’ve been foolish in the past, I know that I hurt you I know that cause of my actions, our marriage had a precursor I know that you are my everything and my heart on my sleeve But you the reason that I made it here, it’s easy to see And girl I love how you be tripping when I’m in too deep Girl, you carry my seed, the greatest mother indeed But I love the way you know me so well I know we struggle, and I love the way we refuse to fail It takes a lot for me to get to this point But some things just need to be heard before it’s said and done You and the kids are my worlds And you know that Moving forward don’t go back So hold on to a nigga Reassure me and refocus