Don't Fall

I tell myself Don't fall Don't fall Don't fall Why am I fighting (Why am I fighting) I should be way more excited Don't fall Don't fall Don't fall I feel myself shutting down Why am I crying It's gonna be ok I find myself saying it everyday Anxiety coming in From every which way Outside I be slaying Inside I be slain It be too PG to call it pain Yeah From all weight on my shoulders (From all weight on my shoulders) I feel like I'm Gon and Killua Holding up boulders You can sleep when its all over Drifted off dropped my controller Lookup It's game over Has your mind ever betrayed you I'm supposed to fun yeah So why did I run yeah You off Has a label ever caged you The battle is won yeah The war has just begun I tell myself Don't fall Don't fall Don't fall Why am I fighting I should be way more excited Don't fall Don't fall Don't fall I feel myself shutting down Why am I crying And have you ever wanted something that you know you don't deserve And every bone in your body says Be loud be proud I tend to shut down now I'm feeling reserved And I got nothing to my name They say fake it till you make it I'm just faking these days I fake so well people think I deserve a break Man I'm just trying not to break I tell myself Don't fall Don't fall I fell once the void was worse than the fear It took a lot for me to get that I belong here In fact most days It's still unclear On those days I let someone else steer Yeah pick up the strings yeah be my puppeteer Yeah I tell myself Don't fall Don't fall There's no questioning this feeling will come back It just means I've got feelings whats wrong with that Yeah, It hurts But pretending everything is fine feels so much worse And its fake it 'til you make it or until I end up in a hearse I wanna be real but it feels like i've been faking it curse There's cure it works but you gotta put it in the work And say the words I won't fall Won't fall Has your mind ever betrayed you I'm supposed to be fun yeah So why did I run yeah You off Has a label ever caged you The battle is won yeah The war has just begun I tell myself don't fall don't fall I fell once the void was worse than the fear It took a lot for me to get that I belong here In fact most days It's still unclear On those days I let someone else steer Yeah pick up the strings yeah be my puppeteer Yeah I tell myself Don't fall Don't fall Don't fall Why am I fighting I should be way more excited Don't fall Don't fall Don't fall I feel myself shutting down Why am I crying