After Laughter

After laughter comes tears Cause you finally get forced to face your own fears Now winning the battle doesn't make you the star It really just leaves you with even more scars And I hate scars Said I hate scars Cause their just reminders on your body about the times you got hurt (Whoop) I'm so retrospective all I can do is stare (Yeah) And think about how I could have not put them there (Uh) And I'm feeling really bitter Cause I don't feel like a winner Left you knocked out on the side of the bay And I'm thinking about what you mama would say If you never got up Cause I should stop being so dramatic and just grow up, right (Woo) But I can't help it Laughing in his face as he grunts in pain I didn't even mean to do it All I wanted is for him to give me some change Violent crimes in my perception Pled the fifth hold back the tension Finding myself in the songs that I rap on Final verdict is the one that we live on I still took his life and I'll say Even after all this change I won't be surprised if I don't make it through heavens gate And as I cry God will laugh at me And as I cry God will laugh at me And as I cry God will laugh at Me