Human

The things you tried to make me believe in To live, give, love and forgive I'm trying... Never painless, emotional emptiness I always keep raping myself this way Just darkness, I'm building myself a mountain of grief I'm left by myself Noose of guilt around my neck Will there be someone here to listen? Self destructive, or call it what you want Self deception, I do it time and time again True denial, Am I suicidal? As my pain mounts up I really can't tell anymore Now I am I'm left by myself Fed up by thoughts