How Did We Get Here? (A Requiem to Jessie’s Carpet)

I was walking down my street Feeling the pavement hit my feet You were standing near the trees Waiting on your lawn for me We walked on through the woods The sun setting at our feet You looked over at me and said, "Wow I feel complete" I think you mentioned the word forever I shouldn't have believed You only ever used the word forever After we'd smoked all your weed But it still seemed real to me Yeah it still seemed real to me The fear was coursing through my veins You gnawed on all my sugar cane The tectonic plates inside my brain shifted to your pain You make me want to be myself But not really be myself You make me want to love my life But also burn alive I think you mentioned the word forever I shouldn't have believed Because nothing lasts forever Except this look your giving me As we drive on down your street To this place not meant for me Have you looked at your ghost in a while? I see her right now in the bathroom tile Do you even care anymore? I'm gonna fucking throw-up all over Jessie's floor I know we haven't spoke in like a week And I've just spent it shaking my knee I want you to give me envy Make me bleed Break my fucking shins and put me down on my knees Do you love me? Probably not Would you f*ck me? Worth a shot