Deadly Nightmare

Colors blending in my mind Nothing here but horrible sights I've got a pain in my mind As I'm ripped and torn from inside I've never been one to deny That mistakes I've made our mine But everything about this night Is too much for me to bear this time The dream I had Twisted and deformed A deadly nightmare My senses are swarmed Can this all still be just a dream? Cause it feels too damn real to me I won't wake from this it seems Can I ever be free? I can't open my eyes As it seems they are already wide Visions haunting me In this waking messed up dream I know no measure of peace In this deadly nightmare Waking moments Lucid and surreal I'm squirming and wriggling Like a freshly speared eel The agony of death Would be less than this Better now To simply not exist The dream I had Twisted and deformed A deadly nightmare My senses are swarmed Can this all still be just a dream? Cause it feels too damn real to me I won't wake from this it seems Can I ever be free? I can't open my eyes As it seems they are already wide Visions haunting me In this waking messed up dream I know no measure of peace In this deadly nightmare All I want's an answer Is that less than I deserve Was it so much to ask That's at least what I observed Now its come to this I'm standing on an edge My life flipped upside down On its head Four years of this Now all regrets Guess its on me Should've known better than this. The dream I had Twisted and deformed A deadly nightmare My senses are swarmed Can this all still be just a dream? Cause it feels too damn real to me I won't wake from this it seems Can I ever be free? I can't open my eyes As it seems they are already wide Visions haunting me In this waking messed up dream I know no measure of peace In this deadly nightmare Being back here In this moment Thinking what I could have changed Leads me to the same damn place I could have just walked away Stayed the same But that would have been Too high a Price to pay This dream that I had Is fucked beyond repair Guess that its better Than delusions and prayers Still I would have liked A second chance to get it right But whats done is done I don't want to revisit this night. The dream I had Twisted and deformed A deadly nightmare My senses are swarmed Can this all still be just a dream? Cause it feels too damn real to me I won't wake from this it seems Can I ever be free? I can't open my eyes As it seems they are already wide Visions haunting me In this waking messed up dream I know no measure of peace In this deadly nightmare The dream I had Twisted and deformed A deadly nightmare My senses are swarmed Can this all still be just a dream? Cause it feels too damn real to me I won't wake from this it seems Can I ever be free? I can't open my eyes As it seems they are already wide Visions haunting me In this waking messed up dream I know no measure of peace In this deadly nightmare In this deadly nightmare