Recovery

You tore me apart and I crave your remorse I finished the chapter but you beg for more I’m lost and I’m bleeding done doing your chores I find myself hurting and hating me more I’m broken, I’m shattered and fading to pieces Driven to madness from you and your deceivin’ Yeah, I know I’ve said this a lot But lately I have felt so lost Tried to find myself but that’s a line I wont cross One day I thought, what if this is all white chalk Cause the body they found is mine Don’t know how wonder why All this time, I’ve been trapped in the rhyme Maybe I’m just wasting time, cause in my mind I’m alright But I’m not fine I’m struggling I’m stumbling, I’m coming up empty I’m running on fumes tryin’ to be what I can’t be I’ve been so busy hating that I haven’t been venting All the stories I’ve told are startin’ to repeat Truth is a treaty and I’m signing my entry Yeah I’m signing my name and givin’ up my feats And if I cant see then I’m blind to defeat Life is a gift I’m givin’ up my receipt I’m givin’ up now, I’m fallin’ down I can’t stand up now, I hate myself The air is rough and, I cannot breathe I can’t change my ways I need recovery I’m givin’ up now, I’m fallin’ down I can’t stand up now, I hate myself The air is rough and, I cannot breathe I can’t change my ways I need recovery I was walking blind through the forest Mind was so charred, left a broken fortress Buried in the rubble, you can call me humble But the truth is I’m dealing with depression, and looking at nooses If I can get my head loose, I won’t lose, I just work hard and do what I’m supposed to Everyday I felt so lost, I couldn’t change myself I Played all my cards, but I hate myself Can’t face myself, try to start new but I want to erase myself Spending all my time tryna be someone else I lost the game the second that my hands got dealt I tried but couldn’t find myself through the pain I know, I gave up and I feel so ashamed I need help, I need to be saved, I need to get back on my feet, and I need to change but I’m givin’ up now, I’m fallin’ down I can’t stand up now, I hate myself The air is rough and, I cannot breathe I can’t change my ways I need recovery I’m givin’ up now, I’m fallin’ down I can’t stand up now, I hate myself The air is rough and, I cannot breathe I can’t change my ways I need recovery I felt so lost now I’m falling down If it will not stop I’ll abandon this town I can’t even look in the mirror, I can’t trust myself I can see it clearly, it is time to say farewell Truth is a nuisance to you but, I don’t wanna be the new kid In a race with death I’m losin’, if I do not make it doin’ music Then I give up, I quit I’m done, Time to say goodbye It was fun Let’s all jump, but never run, guess my time has come I’m givin’ up now, I’m fallin’ down I can’t stand up now, I hate myself The air is rough and, I cannot breathe I can’t change my ways I need recovery I’m givin’ up now, I’m fallin’ down I can’t stand up now, I hate myself The air is rough and, I cannot breathe I can’t change my ways I need recovery