The Abyss

I've been through struggles, yeah I've been through pain Wish I was something special, but I'm just deranged I got turned around and, Cannot find my way I've lost all my focus, And now I can't explain Everyday I feel this strife, Everyday I see my life, I wanna put it on pause, Cause it's Tryna pass by, but I can't catch up, Tellin' me to standby One more favor and I'll crash and burn, one more failure is a lesson learned, If you want Something you better fuckin earn, Gotta give it my all or be left to burn yo Standin' strong, gotta give it all I've got If I do not fight am I even worth the dust Gotta fight hard just to make it through the rough Down to my fuckin bones I ain't ever givin' up Yeah I'm givin' it my all but it's not enough They'll find me at the top even when I'm sunk Even through the pain, I will find trust Find me in the abyss surrounded by my blood There's so much struggle, There's so much pain In the end I feel like I'm gonna go insane I pick up my pen and pad, write and I write, I won't ever change I sunk so deep and I cannot face, my family or friends I'm a disgrace I was feelin' like I'm useless I was lost so deep but the truth is Nobody will stop my movement What is, true I don't really care if you care for me My sanity is slowly depleting I'm on my knees and I cannot breath Standin' strong, gotta give it all I've got If I do not fight am I even worth the dust Gotta fight hard just to make it through the rough Down to my fuckin bones I ain't ever givin' up Yeah I'm givin' it my all but it's not enough They'll find me at the top even when I'm sunk Even through the pain, I will find trust Find me in the abyss surrounded by my blood I'm fallin' down I'm breaking out I'm shaking now This is all the life I've found Addiction caused The Gunshots I miss it all Screamin' at the top of my lungs If I cry if I scream Then I'm not here If I break at the seams then I'll disappear If you know that I'm lost then it's all clear I'm in the abyss bleeding out you're not near Standin' strong, gotta give it all I've got If I do not fight am I even worth the dust Gotta fight hard just to make it through the rough Down to my fuckin bones I ain't ever givin' up Yeah I'm givin' it my all but it's not enough They'll find me at the top even when I'm sunk Even through the pain, I will find trust Find me in the abyss surrounded by my blood