Neurosis

My disease sets the distance between us You feel my grimy fingers I look for your meek eyes Forgetting any meeds Touching you and burning cold The vomit and gravity and changing voices I chased the shadows of your reflections They had no clear direction Yet I found there your affection With no wisdom to share but the guilt I always felt Because I never raised my hand to speak what I believed The side of me you don't wanna see If you only knew your needs My dreams would be your means But I haven't found any peace of mind I chased the shadows of your reflections They had no clear direction Yet I found there your affection Yet I found there your affection Our mothers died for our forgotten rights As I curl up and show my rage with a different face Because you never cared for me As much as I tried to make you smile And take all the pain for you I don't hear you're healing