Old dog

Alone I just find it so hard Everybody wants your heart Greasy hair and dirty nails I can't break my mold Scared to death no jokes and cold skin Dying to hug you and feel your skin I know, I know, I shouldn't be here Full moon changes moods I'm so sick of feeling mute She just seems to be there When I'm not sad or aware Again your smile is wearing thin Tell me how far you have been I know, I know, I shouldn't be here They seemed to be there Now they're gone, I swear Emptiness numbs me again I think it's all in my brain Anger slowly blooming in my self I vanished for your good and my guilt I know, I know, I shouldn't be here